So for the past month, I have been really stressed out. A lot of good possibilites for my family and I are on the horizon. We may be moving back to my home town, which I swore after Jeremiah died I would never go back too. He just left a sad piece of me with him there. But alas I think it may be best for us to move back there. My whole family lives there and so does my mil and fil, and sil. My brother, dad, mom, and grandma all live there. (So yes it is my whole family). It is much cooler up there and a much smaller town to raise my kids in.
My husband decided he would go to a class that cost $180 to learn more about his degree and get a foot in the door so to speak with some other landscape architects. Little did he know that day he would walk away with a job and maybe a new place to call home (or an old place in our case). There are many if's in the whole story. His soon to be boss has to go up north to look for a place to rent and see if he can find something he likes. If he finds something he likes, he wants my husband up there as soon as June. Omg! I cannot believe June. I have hated it down here ever since we moved, but I cannot leave as soon as June. I so want to do the right thing with the house, but we all know how the housing market is and I don't think we will be able to sell it for what we owe on it. I am sad about this. I hope we can figure something out with the bank. We would rent it out, but with the pool I just don't think that is safe. I don't want our renters to have one of their family members die in the pool and then sue us. I also don't think we would get half of our mortgage payment out of renters and most renters down here sign contracts for 1 year and then somehow get out of it in 2 months.
Then there are other things. For instance the kids school. I can get H into kindergarten at a charter school down here with her December birthday, but not up there because there are not any schools that will take her in with a December birthday. My other kids will leave their friends behind, but they will adjust. My neurologist is down here and I don't want to transfer all of my doctors, but I will. So the cons are H and kindergarten, the house, and ..... that is about it. The pros are cooler weather, forest land around us to go off-roading in again, my old pediatrician whom I dearly loved, my family, my husband's family, our hometown that I lived in for 20 years and my husband was born in, small town to raise our kids in, and I could go on. I think pretty much we have decided that we would move. It is just a lot of stress until we find out for sure and we get to the bank and see our options. So right now I am hoping my tumor is soaking up the negative energy. I find out in September if it has gotten bigger and the options there, which I do not feel any different symptoms or anything, so I am hoping it has not.
Thanks for stopping by for New Friend Friday. You have a beautiful family. Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!
ReplyDeleteThe son we lost at 20 weeks was named Jeremiah. when we lost our baby on november 5, 1998, someone gave
ReplyDeleteme a card with this poem and it has meant more to me that anything. so i
thought i would share it. the scripture on the front is Job 1:21 and inside
it says:
" I was thinking abut what's ahead for the baby. Can you imagine-it will be
taking its first steps on the streets of Heaven! Hannah was a mother who
certainly knows how special a little baby is. Perhaps she'll be the one who
will let it hold her finger as it takes those first staggering steps; and
maybe she will be the one to coax it into taking it first steps alone!
Perhaps Dorcas will see to it that its hems get let out, and that the
buttons are sewn on that growing child. And Joshua! Just think what it would
be like for a child to climb into his lap and hear-first hand- about the
battle of jericho!..
Maybe Petrer will take it fishing someday! It will never fall out of tree or
breaks it's leg, for there is no pain or tears there! It won;t be afraid of
the dark for there is no darkness there. The King of Kings, the Lord of
Lords, he is the very one who said, "let the little children come to me." I
expect there will be many a time when he himself will take that baby in his
lap and let it know a love that makes all other loves seem puny by contrast.
I wouldn't be surprised if the Heavenly Father keeps a few lollipops handy
for just such occasions....
And one day, you will be greeted with a " Hi Dad and Mom! I've got some of
the neatest things to show you; and some really fantastic people i can't
wait for you to meet."